Aloha....Life can never be any worse than what it already is. Wanna know why?! This is because i just setteld an issue with my best friend and reality has just sunk into me.

It hit me so hard I had a headache trying to look at things from a different point of view. I don't want to live in my own lala land anymore. It's high time I moved forward with life and made wise decisions.

At least that will make feel better and good. I need to boost my level of confidence and self-esteem so that I will be able to take a leap forward and not a dip backwards. I am talking crap ritez??

Well that is exactly what i am feeling now and am wishing and hoping that things will not be as they seem and for awhile look different or the opposite of now.....

Oh no today?! what did I do? Well woke up 10 went back to sleep at 12 woke at 1 and had my lunch...than started studying sociology...Never knew sociology was so fun until I was forced to concentrate on it just now....Finished studying two chapters and 3 more to go for tonight.

Its been days since i received a call from a friend.... Nad today my friends called me and it was so fun to hear both the house phone and handphone ringing. Call me mad I think thats my middle name for awhile.....Dun ask why but its a mother and daughter thing.....No man in this world can COMPREHEND...

The tv is still plugged out....so i don't get to watch anything during the day and whats on at nite? Nuthin....So that leaves me wif books and internet.....Thats life for me....So sad....

Wow i have not written in centuries...OOooopss I meant months...alot has happened....Like I almost lost my life while boarding the bus but instead injured my knee. Thank God he saved me from all harm and danger.

I have my exams next week and I am all books and nothing else because my father has pulled out the plug to the tv. Amazing rite?! Anyway i feel as rotten as an egg....why? because i know someone is avoiding me and it hurts to know he is doing so...

All i need is God and God alone, I place my trust on Him...So that he will make all things and my path straight. this I know. Therefore no matter what i face and what phase of life i am in He will be there for me....In good times and bad ones....

I have two people in class i cannot stand because they happened to be in my group for assignments or share my tutorials....I really need the patience to be nice to them and not snap.....Please give me a remedy to treat this people nicely.

Okie......what did I do today? I woke up at 10 and went back to sleep at 12. woke up and had my lunch and than studied CRM...but as I write this now i don't know how much is in my head.....then at 4 i cleaned the house and continud studying...At 6 i went out wif my cousins and came home. had my bath and continued studying and ate my dinner....Now I am here talking to daphne, Joel and am hoping June will come online.

Alrite thats all for now.....Adios. 

Aloha.....I have been sick lately and had alot of things running through my mind lately...That's why I have not had the time to fill in stuff. So what's been happening? I went bowling on saturday. I only manage to strike once but I was super happy coz played after so many years and yet I manage to play....I also took a couple of shots that i think are very nice. I am so happy coz the photos looked nice and Gee I wasssss smiling.. I am not photogenic at all...Probably coz the place and the lighting was fine and nice thats why the phot turned out nice...

I went to church today and the sermon was on the FALL OF MAN!!!! Adam and Eve fell to the temptation on Satan and thats why Christ came to redeem us. I came home and slept for an hour and watched tv and now I am here writing my journal. Thats cool rite? I have to start studying but I am just toooooo LAZY to do so. I need encouragement and motivation to study. Probably i am just to involved with whatever is going on around me thats why i feel all down and disturbed and sad.

I have been so busy lately that all I can do is study, eat and sleep. Pathetic rite? Anyway I drove home yesterday alone. Unbelieavable rite? I have solved most of my problems and I have my weekend lined up for me. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going bowling with my youths this Saturday.....Oh by the way I have so many assginments to finish. I think by the end of this semester I am going o be an expert in doing assignments and assignments and assignments.....Sounds ridiculous rite? Well thats all my life is going to be till I go on my holidays in October. I think this holidays thats after my bros PMR we will be going on holiday to I don't know where. I hope somewhere exciting at leats I will be able to look forward to it.  

I wish at times we are all born with feelings that are only happy and not sad and broken heartedness. The pain that one has to go through is unimaginable. All one can do is sit and wallow in their sadness and sorrow. That someday will lead to depression than I don't want to imgine it at all. No I am mot in depression but I just wonder why people commit suicide and than get the people around them to go through an emotional roller-coaster. I bet when they reach earth they don't want to be here anymore at all.